Before I begin I want to thank each of you so very much for your thoughtful comments...you are such kind caring people and I wish I could thank each of you in person...there would be a long hug involved.
I've thought about what I would write here the last few hours....
Thinking about what's changed since Steve got sick...
I can only share my experience as the caregiver...
I lived this from a distance...watching and grasping trying to find my footing
So, these thoughts will be random as I remember them...
#1....this is the most important lesson I've learned - there is power in prayer.
There is something, someone, somewhere who is aware of exactly what is happening in your life.
If you ask for help - you will receive it...go ahead and be specific....He's really good at "specific"
I've learned we are supposed to help eachother.....every chance we get.
And I do mean "we are supposed" to. You know if there is someone out there who could benefit from something you could take time to do for them - do it.
I don't waste time anymore with worry...about anything.
It never changes the outcome and the time spent steals away the blessings of my life
When troubles come I know that this is "part" of my life, not the entire future....I now relax and know someone else is in the drivers seat...and I carry on enjoying the rest of the day - it is such a relief to know that I don't have to try to figure things out anymore
I thought that my feeling of only wanting to take a single day at a time was occuring while Steve was sick...
that feeling has lasted five years and I expect it to continue ....
that my friends is a really good thing
I enjoy this day...one day at a time...I take time to notice, to share, to be present..
Tomorrow, well, it's not here yet..and quite frankly, it's not promised that it ever will be so why not enjoy and savor the one I'm currently living
I give thanks.... every time I can remember
there are things that have happened in life and that will happen in the future that will not provide me the answers "why"... I'm okay with that...
I don't need to know the reason - it's enough to know that there is one
For some odd reason I was thinking about when we get on a roller coaster ride...
we eagerly climb in the seat,
the lap bar folds down to hold you safe 'n snug,
we place our hands on the metal and hold tight hoping for the ride of our lives...
the coaster begins to move and we smile....completely trusting that there is someone, somewhere at the controls of the soon to be speeding twisting ride. We never see this person...only assuming that he's there
when the first slow chugging climb begins we laugh in antisipation of the fall ahead, hoping it will be a deep drop causing roars of voices from everyone on board - our hands ready to release from the lap bar showing arms stretched high to show our bravery...
this is how I now approach my life...I've let go of the bar...I trust the One in the control room...
I smile in antisipation of a great ride...and I know I can trust in things unseen
Have a great day friends...I'll be back....I want to share with you some of the things people did for me while Steve was sick that helped me though that difficult time...
because I know you'd do the same - and maybe I can provide an idea or two.
Happy Friday Friends...I'm wishing you a really wonderful day.
5 comments:
You are fortunate to have discovered the secret of "attitude is everything," and are able to apply the principles. Good for you!
Congratulations on reaching the 5-year milestone, Steve. Slow and steady wins the race. Over the roller coaster, I much prefer to plod along on the flat ground. A life with too many twists, swift ascensions, quick drops, side to side bufferings, all the while with wind whipping hair in my eyes simply breaks my spirit.
That was beautiful and wonderful!
My husbands reminds me that each day is a gift and as you said tomorrow is not a promise.
Congratulations to both of you on the 5 year milestone.
Absolutely a wonderful post today. I heard every word you said and I agree. I love the roller coaster analogy, it is perfect. Looking forward to hearing more of your story,
hugs,
Meredith
Oh, how I love this post. I knew it would be something like this, but the honesty, beauty, and grace surpasses all I thought it would be.
This is my favorite part:
Tomorrow, well, it's not here yet..and quite frankly, it's not promised that it ever will be so why not enjoy and savor the one I'm currently living
LDK: I toast to you tonight, to CURED, and to all that TODAY has brought you. xxx
Congratulations on 5 year "cured". I hope it's another 45!
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